January 8th, 2013 was the worst day of my life! I lost my son on that day at the age of 37….. and I was the unfortunate person that found him.

I had been given an IPad for Christmas just a few weeks before and did not have a clue how to use it yet. All the settings were set to public.

All of my life when I was disturbed or really happy either one I would write it down. On the night of finding my son I just did what comes natural for me and wrote all of my emotions down….. what I thought was only going out on Facebook to close friends and family was going out to everyone as a public post.

I was putting my raw emotions out there for all to read. I was pretty embarrassed about this at first until I began to receive private Facebook messages from lots of people, young and old and with them expressing to me how my words were affecting them.

Later I was asked to speak at a few places such as church ladies groups and elementary schools. What started out as my raw emotions became a personal testimony and a ministry and eventually led into me writing this blog. I am also working on a book entitled, Losing a Son and Living with it.

Like the picture above says the greatest test of my faith was losing my son. I miss my son dearly and did not want him to die and have asked myself a million questions with the word WHY in front of them but in the end I have to Thank God for loaning me my son for 37 years and I appreciate every second I had with him.

I don’t want to give away my book so I won’t go into a lot of details here but I decided the best way to honor my son is to let him live on through my written words.

Please pray for me in this endeavor as I am nobody special by any means but just a willing vessel to be used of God.

It has taken me years of hurts, tears, pain, and sorrow to get to where I stand today and I can honestly say without a doubt that I could not have done it without God being by my side.

So to God tonight I say Thank You Lord!