This morning as I awakened and opened up my Facebook an article popped up in my memories that was written at 5:58 AM on the morning of my son’s funeral which was January 12, 2013.

Here is that article:

My secret ambition has always been to be a writer, I write things on here to somehow share my world and my heart with all of you and somehow I feel that I can be that writer that I never got to be. Today we will bury our oldest son who we love dearly, the day that we brought him home from the hospital there came a terrible thunderstorm and we should have known then that our journey with him would go through a lot of storms. Danny was always a dare devil child and as stubborn as a mule. LOL That same stubborn will is what got him through seeing his baby girl for the first time laying in her casket as he was a soldier in Korea and got brought back on emergency leave,that same stubborn will saw him through getting hit by a train two weeks after the burial of his child and the passenger in his car receiving a deathly blow and him holding the boys brains together until that helicopter landed, that same stubborn will that no matter what happened he was always the tough guy but would ALWAYS cry to the song, ” God Bless the USA” and bawled like a baby when his Dad got home from Iraq because he had so feared that he would never see him again, that same stubborn will that would always stand in my face and say he was ok and did not have any problems when I knew that he needed help. God knew his pain and all of us did too and Danny was so tired,so tired of hurting so much! Danny was saved and baptized at age 6 and I know that it was real and I also know that he made some wrong decisions along the way but don’t we all? The actual name of Danny means, ” God is my judge” and God is righteous and just and pure and He cares for His children and Danny has always been His child so I say goodbye today knowing that we will be together again some day and I feel that God knew that Danny was struggling with trying to be so tough and He said, ” Just come on home Son and rest in me and have that peace that you have always searched for….we love you Danny but know you are in comfort now and we say Goodbye today with thankfulness in our hearts that you were a part of our life!

Today as I reread this article over many times I remembered a lot. I remembered years of having disaster after disaster happen to our family. I remember driving up highway 111 with Mark one day and he was down in the dumps about all that had happened to us and saying how if anything bad is going to happen to a family that it will happen to us. I reminded him at that time that even though we had gone through so much that we had all lived through it and that none of us had died and that we had each other. Looking back now I realize that my words spoken out loud may have opened the door for even more strategy to be played out by Satan.

God has a plan for us but Satan does too. 1 Peter 5:8 in the KJV says, Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:

Be on constant guard with your families. How do we do this? Read your Bible, Pray, Seek God’s direction in all that you do and ask God to put a hedge of protection around you and yours. There is real spiritual warfare going on.

I honestly don’t know what I would have done in my darkest hours of my life if I had not known the Lord and had Him as my comforter. As I reread this article this morning I was in amazement that now I am a writer for real and that God took my deep heart felt words and multiplied and used them to reach other people.

God is so good and I marvel daily at his power! Don’t give up when the enemy attacks you…..fight harder and stronger and call on the name of Jesus with all of your might. You may not get the answers that you would choose but you get the answers that are God’s plan and His plan is always best.

I love this example:

I feel that God reached out for me on January 12, 2013 in my darkest hour and forever I trust Him because HE IS ALWAYS THERE!